When I was younger, I had many aspirations and goals. I wanted to travel to countries, acquire new skills, explore the unknown, go on as many adventures, be in good shape and more importantly have a partner to share with them. I was able to follow my dreams these last 10 years, I am proud of my accomplishments and personal growth and wouldn’t want it any other way. However there is a doubt creeping up these days that I could have achieved a lot more.
At age 35 it has been becoming more and more clear to me, the constraints and challenges we face in our lives, some within our control a some not. Best example is my fitness. Even 5 years back, I could run 5 miles, lift as much as I could and really push myself without any soreness or injuries or ‘pain’
Now when I go running with in the first half mile I have pain on my foot, have issue with itching or I get hives..it feels more and more like an uphill battle
Travel has been outlet for me whenever I feel down, want to introspect, want to take a break. I have had a lot of plans for my 35th birthday and everything fell through. Things I thought were working out seem to be now on back burner for various reasons, goals which seemed so near yet so far.. this really got me thinking.
I find myself uninterested in the daily chores of a middle aged IT guy, wish I found a way to escape, rejuvenate myself
What am I supposed to do next, how do I tread the rest of 2020 with so much uncertainty, the future looming,? All this made me realize I am at a crossroads
Look forward to seeing my puppy soon. I named him ‘Frodo’